Extract: Volume 5 - Chapter 15: Hunting For Power
To remember the Fires of the Forge it is first necessary for you to understand your training up until this point in time, but in order to understand your training you must be clear on how you got yourself onto the Warrior’s Path in the first place. You may think that you know the answer to this, but do you really? In my perception you have not even the vaguest of clues as to how you have come to find yourself at this precise point in your training upon the Warrior’s Path. Whatever it is that you think you know, and whatever it is that you believe concerning your training, is but the incoherent non-sense that you have concocted in order to appease your rational mind. You have no notion of what the Warrior’s Path really entails, for you have only your own illusion of what constitutes for you the Warrior’s Path, according to your fixed view of the world and therefore your selective perception of what constitutes life and the world around you. And what you believe you have learned to date is nothing but a hotch-potch of fragmented ideas based entirely upon your self-image. If you were allowed to continue in this way you would become lost for ever within the World of Sorcerers.
You may think that you have come such a long way, and that you are beginning to make really good progress upon the Warrior’s Path, but even though in one sense this is true, yet in another sense your life is now in an even bigger mess than it was when you found me. You are beginning to make good progress, not for the reasons that you believe, for what you believe is nonsense, but you are nonetheless beginning to make good progress, because you are now in a better position than ever before to realise the folly of your perception of both yourself and your life. Your life is now in an even bigger mess than it was before, exactly because you have begun to believe in yourself, when in actual fact you have merely managed to gain an even stronger belief in your self-image and your view of the world. All of the little personal power you have managed to claim this far is being used by you to maintain your self-image and your view of the world, both of which you still hold onto furiously, believing that you are your self-image, and that the world is what your view of the world has forced you to believe it to be. What a catastrophe! What a dilemma! You are quite literally standing on the brink of failure and of disaster, and there is no way back, for you cannot unlearn what you have learned. And yet there is also no way forward, standing where you are at now. You are no longer the person you used to be, and yet you do not know who and what is your true self. You no longer have the life you used to have, and yet your present life is a fiasco. The world you used to know no longer holds for you the same appeal or meaning, and yet you cannot change your perception of the world. You are caught in a trap of your own making.
Your only way out of the mess you find yourself in, is to consider very, very carefully how you found your way to me. In this respect realise that no nagal is ever a willing partner, in the sense that nagals do not gather students like any other teacher, for the simple reason that the Toltec teachings cannot be solicited. Therefore put aside any notion of what you think brought you and me together. I did not accept you as an apprentice because I wanted to. And you did not become my apprentice because you wanted to. The only reason why I accepted you as my apprentice is because power made it clear to me, in one way or another, that I must teach you. But the real reason why you became my apprentice is still unknown to you, hidden within a fate that you as yet do not grasp, and mostly still struggle against.
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